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#ThrowbackThursday: Love and the Last Rose Petal

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Post originally written June 2023.

The beauty in flowers run deep.

The beauty in love runs deeper.

They bud, sprout, bloom then wither away.

Love begins, learns, grows, thrives and sometimes fades away.

Most roses are cut from their natural habitat and placed or grown in a nursery to be selected and given to someone special.

Most loves will catch you off guard and sweep you off your feet by someone who is willing to give you to someone who can take really good care of you until the right one comes along.

Whoever receives the roses, knows that the time they have together will be short.

Some loves know that they are only here for a short while.

Yet, they still give it food, fresh water and clip the stems to prolong their life.

So they still fall in love, operate in love and enjoy this love for as long as they can.

The once closed rose starts to open and bloom beautifully, although it’s fate is imminent.

Love makes you glow and grow differently. Although you can’t help who you fall in love with and some times that love isn’t meant to last forever.

As time passes, leaves and petals start to wither and fall away from the stem.

The growing pains of love start to chip away at what was once so beautiful.

There’s still beauty in the rose despite what it has sacrificed.

The beauty in love are the lessons learned.

The recipient of the selfless rose has been blessed by its beauty.

Love is still beautiful despite the using and abusing that sometimes goes with it.

The rose fell apart slowly and lasted as long as it could.

Lovers try to stick it out but at some point, a separation is inevitable.

The rose is down to the last rose petal.

Love has its last straw. The pain is too much to bear.

The caretaker decides to repay the rose by propagating it and creating a whole new rose bush from the stems of the roses that sacrificed their life for the pleasure of the caretaker.

Even though this one love ended, the beautiful thing about love is that you love, learn and love again. Each time more beautiful than the last.

When I thought of the title “The last Rose Petal”, Teyana Taylor was set to do a tour by the same name and I was listening to a sermon/motivational video on YouTube. The premise of the video was about letting go. So in a roundabout way, this post is a metaphor for letting go and starting over. What you once thought may have been the end, was blessed by a new beginning. Everything you have gone through was only preparation for a bigger and better version of you. Embrace the journey. Your hurt, pain and sacrifice will be the blessing you needed to get you to your heart’s desire. Although deep down inside we know that some things won’t last long, we put time, maybe even too much time, and energy into them. I believe it’s in our nature to try to prolong the inevitable. Our efforts won’t go unnoticed. It speaks to our character and tenacity. It shows that although this thing was only in your life for a season, you took care of it to the best of your ability. – Just My Thoughts

Forty Lessons I’ve Learned in 40 Years

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With age comes wisdom and no truer words were ever spoken. It’s been said that age is a construct and it’s just a number and I agree that it’s just a number. I don’t feel a day over 25. I feel like I look 25. My mindset is old enough to grant me wisdom and young enough to keep up with the times. I often sing Jay-Z and Beyoncé’s Forever Young when I think of age. You’re only as old as you feel. I know 75+ year olds that move around better than 30 year olds and I know 30 year olds that look and act like 60 year olds. You’re only as old or young as you feel!

Over the last few years, I have been focusing on self love, self awareness, peace, stepping out of my comfort zone, trying new things and letting go. In all of that, I’m learning a lot. A lot about myself, life, people, what’s important and what’s not important. Enough of the small talk, let’s get to the lessons.

Most of the things that I have learned has definitely been cliché but as you get older, you understand and respect the clichés. Mainly, because they’re true.

  1. Seek God. He never leaves us, we stray away from Him. When you seek Him out, He will speak to you.
  2. People are exactly who they say they are. They will also show you who they are. Believe them the first time.
  3. Make the days count, don’t count the days.
  4. If you really want to, you will. If they really want to, they will.
  5. Give freely way more than you receive and you will receive more than you give.
  6. Money isn’t everything but when you don’t have a lot of it, money is everything.
  7. Your reputation does precede you. Someone is always watching, even if you don’t notice them.
  8. When you love yourself, it shows in what you do and what you allow.
  9. Credit score can determine if you get the life that you want or the life that is given to you.
  10. Being tight fisted or close handed doesn’t give you room to receive.
  11. Happiness is truly an inside job.
  12. Peace is attainable. Life is for the living.
  13. The best place to start is small. Small steps lead to bigger ones.
  14. There is beauty in everything and a lesson in everything.
  15. Trusting God is the hardest easiest work you’ll ever do.
  16. Just do it. Whatever you want to do, do it! Anything is possible.
  17. Rest/naps are blessings to your mind, body and spirit.
  18. No matter what you do, it’ll never be good enough for someone. You can’t please everyone.
  19. If you always do what you want to do in/at the moment and what feels right to you, you’ll never have regrets.
  20. Trust your gut, intuition, mind and heart. At least one of them has never led you astray.
  21. Everyone is dealing with something. It’s not always personal.
  22. You have the power to change your life with your thoughts, words and abilities.
  23. How you view you is not how everyone else views you.
  24. Feelings aren’t facts but feelings are valid.
  25. It all works out at some point. Everything is connected. It all lines up in the end.
  26. We never give ourselves enough credit. You’re actually better at something than you think.
  27. Everyone isn’t a hater, jealous or envious. Their admiration is just misplaced.
  28. Let it go. Majority of the time, it’s not worth the time you spent worrying about it or holding on to it.
  29. Some people will hurt you and not think twice about it. Heal and appreciate the lesson learned.
  30. Accept and respect people for who they are and give them grace for who they are not.
  31. Take pictures to remember the moment but don’t forget to live in the moment and take it all in.
  32. Traveling exposes you to a whole new world, literally!
  33. Save your money now so that later, your money can save you.
  34. You are born with relatives, and you can choose your family.
  35. Remain solid even when everyone around you may be fickle.
  36. Think before you speak so that you can say what you mean and mean what you say.
  37. Take care of you, your body and things and they will take care of you.
  38. Perspective is the key to a positive life.
  39. Trusting God, being obedient and tithing are the cheat codes to a beautiful life.
  40. Life is everything that you make it. Make it beautiful. You’re in charge of it.

There are many more lessons but these, I feel, are the best for this time in my life.

Here’s what I got for my birthday! Thank you to everyone who blessed me with something.

Sincerely,

Angie

NBA Angie (Never Broke Again Angie)

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Vow to Never be Broke Again

Do you have a “broke” number? If you’re not familiar with what a broke number is, it’s basically a number that you get down to in your finances, where you start to consider yourself broke. It’s a number that should scare you. I also talk about this in a recent podcast episode here.

I found out in 2014 that my broke number was $10,000. In 2011, I left a job that I had been on for 7 years and started a new one 4 months later in 2012. During the 4 months I wasn’t working, I was living off of my savings. The new job paid me significantly less than my previous job, so I was still using my savings to supplement the deficit. After 2 years of living off of my savings, I was approaching a number in my savings account that scared the ish out of me. Before reaching that number, I knew that’s where I was stopping. Because as I was approaching it, I would get nervous thinking about it. That’s when I started to make changes. I downsized as much as possible and I was able to maintain my broke number without touching the savings account for a few years.

Slowly but surely and in very small steps, I started to add money to increase my savings. You can see the growth in my blog posts in the budget tab. I went from saving $2, $5, $15+ dollars at a time, to saving $200, $500, $1,500+ at a time. I went from praying to be able to save $10,000 to saving $10,000 in almost two years, then to saving that in less than one year.

Vowing to never get that close to only having $10,000 in my savings, to being able to save $10,000 in less than a year, only came from the feeling of not having that security. I learned a few things during a span of 5 years that helped me to grow. Since then, my “broke” number has changed and that change came in 2018. That means it took me about 7 years or more to learn my finances, grow my finances and to get comfortable with a much larger “broke number”.

Here’s what I did:

  • I started paying the full 10% of my tithes.
  • I wrote down everything and really learned who I was financially.
  • I elevated each time I reached a goal.
  • I took a deep dive into my finances and learned them inside out.
  • I set many goals, big and small.
  • I pushed myself and always strived for a bigger goal.
  • I sacrificed and had to practice discipline.
  • I took advantage of any thing free, points and programs that rewarded me with free money. (Rakuten, surveys, loyalty programs, receipt programs, etc.)
  • I counted every penny and knew where every penny was supposed to be.

If you’re reading this, it’s my hope that this post inspires change if you need it or motivation. This post is not to brag or boast. We all have a journey, and it took me nearly 10 years to get to this place. I vowed to never get close to my broke number again, and if life did happen and I got close to it, I know exactly how to recover it all again. NBA Angie!!! Happy budgeting!

Sincerely,

Angie