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Is it Time to be Quiet?

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I’ve learned a lot about me and others in my quiet time. In quiet moments, you get to reflect on what was said or what wasn’t said. What was done and what wasn’t done. How you felt, how you feel, and what those feelings mean. This is how self-awareness is formed and maintained.

The quiet I want to share with you all today has to do with knowing when to be quiet or when to say something. I am still fine tuning my discernment and knowing when to share what God has impressed on my heart. I get so excited when I get a revelation or when God does a thing in my life, like connecting dots. There’s a deep joy present to be able to share and recognize when God is talking to you and moving in ways that you once prayed about.

But then I sit and wonder, was I supposed to share that, God? Or was that something I was supposed to sit with and allow you to continue revealing to just me alone? Was I supposed to share that so soon? Am I supposed to fully be in it and get full clarity on it? I shared this with my cousin and she said, that maybe I am supposed to share it to encourage others. And essentially, that is my main purpose for sharing, to inspire or give hope to others.

Then I justify it by saying, God knows His child has a big mouth and she will definitely go and spread the good news. Lol! I also have to be mindful of my mouth and the words that come out of it. The mouth is powerful and because of my name’s meaning, I feel it’s my responsibility to be a good steward over what I may say to others. God surely knows my heart and an old saying “intention doesn’t equal impact” also comes to mind. So even though I mean well, I think that I will table my excitement and make sure the Lord gives me the okay to share. More daily prayers for God to bridle my tongue also.

In the most recent podcast episode, I share a story of how God moved and saved me from my emotions. It involved my thoughts, and realizing that those thoughts were not Christ-like and then fasting for renewal, clarity, revelation, and forgiveness. Listen to #DearDistraction here! In short, in 3 days, God told me to not worry, my feelings are valid and the problem is already solved. Hallelujah!!! This was a time I chose to be quiet and let God speak. Thank God I didn’t let my feelings and emotions distract me and get me caught up in a bigger issue.

Sincerely,

Angie 💜

Love is…

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Love is beautiful. The word love is all encompassing. It’s so broad but so simple. Psychologists have come to define love in a few different categories. A quick Google search can summarize it for you, but to quickly note it in this post, here are the components and types of love. Three components of love are intimacy, passion and commitment. Three Greek types of love are Eros, Philia and Agape. And love can be seen in three types of relationships, romantic, familial and friendship.

God is love and God’s love is the agape kind. The highest form of love, unconditional and selfless.

I do think that love is taught. Whether it’s taught in how it’s shown or learned from what’s not shown. I unfortunately learned from the latter. I knew what I hadn’t received and I knew that different and better was out there. I was able to test it out in my first real relationship at 19 years old.

Oddly enough, I was able to sit down with my first boyfriend recently and we chatted about our past and who and what I was to him back then. It was a blessing to hear what I did at 19 years old after not being taught or shown love. I guess it was just God given, so it was just in me.

I’m glad that over the years I’ve been able to still operate in love despite not receiving it in return. I love love and love will always be the thing that I want to lead with. I pray that the world could/will follow suit because love is truly beautiful. Love makes everything better. When you finds God’s love, self-love should follow and the love for you neighbor can and will come easily.

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Memory Lane: Do y’all remember this song?

“The word “love” is a hell of a word to be sayin’. If you don’t know how to use it with caution,
it’s a death-defying game to play. And when you’re thinking of, the one you want to get next to, make sure it’s a mutual feeling…” -Take Your Time -Mo Thugs

I used to sing that song word for word when I was younger. I haven’t heard it in decades but the lyrics always come to mind. So I had to go find it on Youtube. LOL!

Happy Valentine’s day Lovers,

Sincerely, Angie ❤️💕

Thankful for Healing

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“There’s only so much healing that can be done in isolation. You have to be triggered by the real world to see if the healing works.” -Crissle

I told y’all a few posts ago that I am finding out a lot about myself in this season of my life. I was always sure of who I was/am. Not in the sense that I can’t learn more about me but I thought that at the core of me, I knew me. Well little did I know, it would be “AI” to show me, that I, indeed have work to do. Deep rooted childhood work.

There’s a trend on TikTok of mostly women, using Gemini(AI) to merge pictures of current them, hugging their younger self. I love me so much that I thought it would be great to see a picture of little me and big me in one picture. Baby, little did I know, little me needed that hug I saw in the picture. Of course it’s AI but I’m a visual person, so, I sobbed. I sat with a friend and shared it with them also and I sobbed even more.

Even though I am the “strong one”, behind these walls, rests someone who is indeed vulnerable and has questions that need answering. I’d say 25 year old me to 41 year old me has life under control. Twenty-four year old me on back, needs a bit of clarity. Forty-one year old me is secure, confident, loyal, at peace, happy, content, growing, learning, living by faith, comfortable, stable, trustworthy and so much more. But there’s a part of me that was triggered by that picture. Now I have to get with her and see why and what she has to say.

You can navigate the world so much better when you are in charge of you, your emotions and your well being. It’s easier to have compassion and sympathy for others when you realize that every day is a journey and everything is not a personal attack. This understanding and knowing comes from learning yourself and having grace. So here I am, doing both, learning myself and giving myself grace. There’s no way you can know that there is a part of you that’s hurting and you do nothing to fix it. Let the healing begin! #HappyHealing

  • Part of this post was written months ago. It wasn’t until recently that I read it and decided that now is the perfect time for it.
  • I read a book on Inner Child Work, you can check it out here. It’s an e-book that was written by my Therapist cousin Arianne Washington with Elite Therapy. Visit https://www.elitetherapy.love/

Sincerely,

Angie