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Thankful for Healing

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“There’s only so much healing that can be done in isolation. You have to be triggered by the real world to see if the healing works.” -Crissle

I told y’all a few posts ago that I am finding out a lot about myself in this season of my life. I was always sure of who I was/am. Not in the sense that I can’t learn more about me but I thought that at the core of me, I knew me. Well little did I know, it would be “AI” to show me, that I, indeed have work to do. Deep rooted childhood work.

There’s a trend on TikTok of mostly women, using Gemini(AI) to merge pictures of current them, hugging their younger self. I love me so much that I thought it would be great to see a picture of little me and big me in one picture. Baby, little did I know, little me needed that hug I saw in the picture. Of course it’s AI but I’m a visual person, so, I sobbed. I sat with a friend and shared it with them also and I sobbed even more.

Even though I am the “strong one”, behind these walls, rests someone who is indeed vulnerable and has questions that need answering. I’d say 25 year old me to 41 year old me has life under control. Twenty-four year old me on back, needs a bit of clarity. Forty-one year old me is secure, confident, loyal, at peace, happy, content, growing, learning, living by faith, comfortable, stable, trustworthy and so much more. But there’s a part of me that was triggered by that picture. Now I have to get with her and see why and what she has to say.

You can navigate the world so much better when you are in charge of you, your emotions and your well being. It’s easier to have compassion and sympathy for others when you realize that every day is a journey and everything is not a personal attack. This understanding and knowing comes from learning yourself and having grace. So here I am, doing both, learning myself and giving myself grace. There’s no way you can know that there is a part of you that’s hurting and you do nothing to fix it. Let the healing begin! #HappyHealing

  • Part of this post was written months ago. It wasn’t until recently that I read it and decided that now is the perfect time for it.
  • I read a book on Inner Child Work, you can check it out here. It’s an e-book that was written by my Therapist cousin Arianne Washington with Elite Therapy. Visit https://www.elitetherapy.love/

Sincerely,

Angie

#ThrowbackThursday: Love and the Last Rose Petal

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Post originally written June 2023.

The beauty in flowers run deep.

The beauty in love runs deeper.

They bud, sprout, bloom then wither away.

Love begins, learns, grows, thrives and sometimes fades away.

Most roses are cut from their natural habitat and placed or grown in a nursery to be selected and given to someone special.

Most loves will catch you off guard and sweep you off your feet by someone who is willing to give you to someone who can take really good care of you until the right one comes along.

Whoever receives the roses, knows that the time they have together will be short.

Some loves know that they are only here for a short while.

Yet, they still give it food, fresh water and clip the stems to prolong their life.

So they still fall in love, operate in love and enjoy this love for as long as they can.

The once closed rose starts to open and bloom beautifully, although it’s fate is imminent.

Love makes you glow and grow differently. Although you can’t help who you fall in love with and some times that love isn’t meant to last forever.

As time passes, leaves and petals start to wither and fall away from the stem.

The growing pains of love start to chip away at what was once so beautiful.

There’s still beauty in the rose despite what it has sacrificed.

The beauty in love are the lessons learned.

The recipient of the selfless rose has been blessed by its beauty.

Love is still beautiful despite the using and abusing that sometimes goes with it.

The rose fell apart slowly and lasted as long as it could.

Lovers try to stick it out but at some point, a separation is inevitable.

The rose is down to the last rose petal.

Love has its last straw. The pain is too much to bear.

The caretaker decides to repay the rose by propagating it and creating a whole new rose bush from the stems of the roses that sacrificed their life for the pleasure of the caretaker.

Even though this one love ended, the beautiful thing about love is that you love, learn and love again. Each time more beautiful than the last.

When I thought of the title “The last Rose Petal”, Teyana Taylor was set to do a tour by the same name and I was listening to a sermon/motivational video on YouTube. The premise of the video was about letting go. So in a roundabout way, this post is a metaphor for letting go and starting over. What you once thought may have been the end, was blessed by a new beginning. Everything you have gone through was only preparation for a bigger and better version of you. Embrace the journey. Your hurt, pain and sacrifice will be the blessing you needed to get you to your heart’s desire. Although deep down inside we know that some things won’t last long, we put time, maybe even too much time, and energy into them. I believe it’s in our nature to try to prolong the inevitable. Our efforts won’t go unnoticed. It speaks to our character and tenacity. It shows that although this thing was only in your life for a season, you took care of it to the best of your ability. – Just My Thoughts