January 20, 2020 @ 2:48p
Asking for help for me was always a last resort. I wanted to do everything myself. It was a blessing and a curse. It was a blessing because I was able to learn how to do things that I previously couldn’t do. It was a curse because I was teaching people that I didn’t need anyone. When in reality, we all need someone, regardless of how strong we think we are. Having weaknesses or a moment of weakness is perfectly normal. It doesn’t make you less human. The more you tell people “I don’t need anything, I am fine. No thank you, I can do it. I am okay. I can handle it.” They begin to take what you have shown and apply it. So when they no longer ask you if you are okay or if you need help, just know that they learned that behavior from you. I recently watched a sermon on YouTube by Pastor Mike Todd called “Winning in Your Weakness”, check it out if you have a moment.
I am getting better at speaking up and saying yes more often. In the end, I am the one that will be affected by pushing everyone away. We were not meant to carry the burdens that we carry all by ourselves and sometime, just venting to someone can lift burdens. It’s okay not to be okay. Feel your feelings, just don’t stay there forever. Learn to acknowledge the feelings, accept the feelings, address the feelings and activate the growth that the feelings produced.
I’ve mentioned before how I was stressed out on a job and didn’t realize it until years later. Well, due to working 70+ hours a week since August 2019, I felt myself waking up and not wanting to get out of bed for work. This was the first red flag and the only red flag that I needed. I went to my part time job and made a change in my schedule that would help me to have more time to take care of me. I also took a 3 day mini vacay this weekend for some much needed rest and relaxation. I was able to get about 9 hours of rest each day and I made sure all of my alarms were deactivated. I ate good and didn’t think about working or jobs at any point during this time. I was also able to do a good bit of reading and writing. This was necessary and right on time. I am refreshed and recharged. I can take on the world! I am also still on my social media fast and I am sure I got a lot done because of that.
I talk more about help on this weeks podcast episode. Listen here!